Assalamualaikum...

hurrrrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... sebenarnya tak tau apa nak update kali ni. tapi rasa macam nak tulis jugak. ok, yani cite pasal budak kleas yani boleh? since yani sekarang berada di kelas baru jadi semua nya baru lah.. cikgu baru, kawan baru, suasana baru, reaction pon baru.

TAPI, yani sekarang bukan macam yani yang dulu yang bising tak tentu tempat. yani sekarang lebih banyak diam bila tempat tu yani tak selesa atau tak biasa lagi. jadi lambat la yani adapt kat tempat baru tu. lagipun sekarang semangat yani dah hilang. semuanya yani nampak gelap. yani perlukan semangat ayni balik. tapi MACAM MANE?? there is something missing in my life now.

tapi yang paling yani terkilan ialah yani dah hampakan harapan mak ayah yani. i ruin everything that i do. yani rasa bersalah gila-gila. my mum maybe can just accept it, yekah.. hati ibu kan lembut so she can easily forgive and give me another chance.but my dad is little bit hard.. InsyaAllah it will be olrite.. i'm begging everyone who read this. please pray for me.. ^^ salam~~

#yani banyak post yang sedih2 kan.. huhuk

YOU ARE A FAILURE!!!!!!!!

assalamualaikum... :) 'you are a failure!' ayat tu bukan yani tuju untuk sape-sape. tapi untuk diri yani sendiri. result exam semester1 yani dah keluar. dan result yani memang teruk sangat. daripada pengajian satu tahun kepada pengajian dua tahun. so korang boleh agak la kan betapa teruk nya result yani kan? hari yani dapat tau result yani tu yani memang tak boleh berhenti menangis. walaupun yani memang dah jangka yang result yani memenag teruk macam ni, tapi yelah, kita manusia ni tak boleh elak dari rasa kecewa kan. yani rasa bersalah dengan mak ayah yani. dengan cikgu-cikgu yani. kawan yani cakap, BANGKIT!! NI UJIAN ALLAH UNTUK KAU!! tapi i keep asking myself

how can i get up when there is no support?? 

or

how am i going to get up.. i'm not that strong to go through all of this burden alone.

i also don't know how to react when people keep asking me am i ok or no coz me too, don't even know wether i'm ok or not. tapi whatever comes towards me, good or bad, i must face it right? so i'm begging to all people that read my blog, please, pray that i can gain enough courage so i can stand up and start a new life... ^^

for now on i think this song guide me well when i really don't know where to go, what to do...

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost

That your so alone

All you is see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless

You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake

You feel you can’t repent

And that its way too late

Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah

He’s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

OOO Ya Allah

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray

You’re the only one that showed me the way,

Showed me the way x2

Insyaallah x3

Insya Allah we’ll find the way

INSYAALLAH!! HAIYA BIL JIHAD!!!